3:30. Mother and Dad were awfully glad to see me.
Went to the show at night with Dot and Jules. Saw "Sea
Devils" and another picture with Ruby Keeler. It was nice but not
too good. Went to Kelley's after for drinks. Home at 2 o'clock.
That was the narrowest squeak I ever had. And here I
was going so blithely along enjoying riding the bike and bingo
a car smacks into me. I turned a somersault and landed on the sidewalk.
Picked myself up a little shakily and tried to assure everyone I was all
right. My bike wasn't!! Walked home a little unsteady and anointed the
cuts and bruises, cut in the foot, scrapped shin and hand a bruise on
each knee. The knee seemed ackey--elbows hurts, shoulder hurts, as a matter
of fact I hurt all over.
I'll never forgive Jere for his behavior last night, never.
And more than anything else will I change the humiliation of being struck
in front of my friends to his account. That I shall never forget. If that
is all he thinks of me--to treat me so brutally at a time when all my
nerves are [upset] by what might have been a serious accident, when I
ache all over--no, that is unforgivable. I don't know what will happen
but I do know this can never be erased, it will ever smother away selfish
feeling in me for I am not a saint though I do love him desperately.
Met Jerry for lunch again with Winkie. We had [some] outing
Winkie and I. All over God's country but God's country is a little barren
right now. Was looking for [inlets] but there arent any yet.
I'm deeply disappointed in Jerry--don't know just why,
but it affects me so much. Why didn't he tell me about it. There is no
need to be ashamed with me. I hate to have other people tell me these
Friday, June 23, [19kk]
I dont know just what to say about Walter, I really
dont. I guess though, Id better use [much more] discretion
than the situation might warrant. Theres no denying the fact he
rather likes me, and whats the use to play with Jere. Not for myself,
good heavens. Im [someone] to him, but its true I do like
him; he is German and so much like Joe.
To me its a pleasure to have him around but not at the expense of
his and Jeres friendship. His and Jeres friendship[how]
are they friends? Certainly they were, and if they arent I must
honestly say it isnt all Jeres fault. He knows how he is,
hes been with us long enough, so its either [that he is really]
too [long or hes gonny weed] of him. Which I hope not. My darling
is such a sensitive nature, it would hurt him very much. But I [know]
just as soon as I know how it is one way or another, I shall see to it
theres a clean and complete break.
(That damned fool, does he think Im so hard up for
entertainment that I could ever remotely think of going out with him!!
He must think me a complete ass. The poor stupid fool.)
Well, you must admit my intentions were strictly honorable;
was it my fault that fate conspired to make it sort of difficult to settle
down to a lengthy report of my doings?
To begin at the beginning, I've had a most marvelous time
You know we had the innocent intention of cycling up there---but, though
my spirit was willing, the flesh remembered the head and the hills, oh
those hills [drawing of large M] and balked. I'm ashamed of my flesh letting
me down that-a-way; just think what it would have meant if I could boastfully
say "We cycled all day, and what a day it was." But that privilege
is now denied me, and a still small voice says "Thank the Lord."
Anyway, we packed our suitcases and our poochie plus blankets
and ourselves in Lester's rumble seat and went up there Monday night.
We lost a whole day that way, but what the heck--I spent the day lying
on the couch storing up energy. The drive up was beautiful, truly beautiful.
Cuddled up with Jere and Winkie hanging out as far as she could, we watched
the marvelous scenery unfold itself. The very minute we got up there I
jumped into my brand new bathing suit and--no, I did not jump into the
water, I guess I'm just a coward at heart--I let myself gently in and
had my swim. And I really had my swim, you've just jolly got to in that
lake. The water's quite deep right at the dock, no bouncing up and down
in the wavelets, swimming is serious business at Lake Hopatcong. But the
water is warm and utterly delightful.
There was only one fault to find, I might go so far as
to say there was a mosquito in the ointment. How those pesky mosquitoes
always manage to find
me is quite beyond me. If there are five
people within reach of their bloodthirsty beaks, whom do they settle on?
You've guessed it, ME. In short, they made a night of me.
Tuesday morning we got up late, had breakfast and proceeded
to enjoy the sun, the water, the air, and had a most enjoyably lazy day.
Wednesday Jere went to Philadelphia to see Philco, but
there's nothing definite. As luck would have it, it rained all day long,
a fine dreary drizzle. Simply maddening. I spent that day curled up on
the swing reading everything readable, which included the three books
I'd brought for just that purpose. I only uncurled myself long enough
to go down to the "Main Drag" between raindrops for something to eat.
The something being a hamburger and a cup of 'cawfee.' In the afternoon
someone knocked on the door, I went to see who on earth it could possibly
be. There stood a young man asking if this was where Lester Laban lived.
All the time his face wore a look that should have gone down in history.
I kept a poker face and replied in the affirmative, I told him that he
would not be home till about eight, however. He said he'd wait. So he
waited--and his face spoke volumes, as plain as if he'd spoken I could
see he was thinking it was deuced odd, a girl, A GIRL in a bachelor dwelling,
(and I did not look like a charwoman, either, in my playsuit). My! My!
that Lester, I didn't know he had it in him. Tsk, tsk,--I kept him in
suspense all afternoon until the fellows came home with Jere, and he kidded
me fondly and introduced me proudly as his wife. I sometimes wonder if
he was disappointed. Thursday was practically a repetition of Wednesday
as far as the weather was concerned, with this difference--Jere was there
and he was not there. That is to say, he was there in the flesh, present
and accounted for, but playing, of all things, chess. Chess!!!! Pray do
not lose sight of the fact that we came up here to be
least during the day. But it seems things never turn out as you'd expect
them. Here we had exactly one day together and then we found ourselves
obliged to entertain a perfectly strange young man. The only thing in
his favor was his car. That saved the day at any rate. When said Thursday
looked so gloomy and we found ourselves at our wits end trying to find
something to do to pass the time, we finally hit on the plan to drive
to the nearest town and hunt up a motion picture place. We drove miles
and miles around in the country till we got to Dover. They actually had
two movie houses there, both no damn good. Only matinee and evening performances,
and this was half way in the afternoon, or about the middle of the picture.
So we were faced with the difficult decision of either seeing only one
picture in its entirely or waiting for the evening performance, or go
home again and sulk. So we stayed and saw " The last Train from Madrid."
It seemed as if the whole population of Dover and vicinity had come to
see the last train leave Madrid among the hoots and cheers of the very
young. It was fierce. After the show we hunted up a place to eat, and
incidentally had a pretty good inspection tour of Dover's Main Street.
Had an atrocious dinner and then went home again. Bought some detective
thrillers on the way and when we got back settled down to an evening with
Friday and Saturday was lovely again. We went out with the canoe, and
explored all over the lake. Jere and I went way out into the big lake
and I thought surely we'd have to swim for it. Whenever the motorboats
went by they left such huge breakers that if they had caught us sideways
they would surely have swamped us. I confess I was a little afraid. Jere
was undaunted, he loved it. Thank the Lord he managed to get the canoe
around each time so we rode with the waves. We went quite far out and
up the lake once, where all the large places are, people have such gorgeous
houses and boathouses in the lake. It was fun.
Sunday the fellows were there and we couldn't use the canoe anymore after
all, they have only one day and it is their boat. Went for a walk and
climbed all over the mountain with Winkie. Came back and lured the others
with me, where we took some pictures. Lester's brother had come too, and
we went home with him because we did not want to go the next morning to
the plant with all our belongings and the dog. Lester's brother didn't
go all the way to Plainfield however, he dropped us near a bus station
at Springfield. Here we were with two suitcases and a box for Winkie.
Oh, Lawsie me! We got off at seventh & Division, thank God, and safely
Rainy again, of course! And so cold and chilly. Went home
with Guy. Al came up at night and he and Jere played chess.
August 20 Letter to Dotty
Yours of the 16th inst. received and duly noted. In the
name of the Casagrande Clan--I thank you. And now let's begin the business
of the day. I give you all the hot news right off the griddle, and do
the explaining afterwards.
Well, it looks as if the marriage license bureau is getting
a right busy time hereabouts. Last Saturday Gert and Kay took a deep breath
and plunged (the Lord have mercy on their soul) And this week Helen Katula
buttonholed me and told me all about her engagement and coming marriage
with graphic illustrations in the shape of a nice little ring. All cattiness
aside, it IS a darn pretty ring. By now she has told the big secret to
everyone who will listen, even Jere had been told. Ah, Love's young Dream!
And the stork has been busy, he brought John Munn twins. Isn't that something?
Several other blessed events are reported by various members of great
C.C. of A. Every place you go to, expectant fathers are wracking their
brain thinking up names for their coming offspring.
Ray had been away for a week, and left me to hold down
the fort. Just between you and me and the lamp post, the wonder is I'm
not a raving maniac now. All would have gone beautifully if things that
had been on ice for months hadn't broken just then. First Beyer called
up and wanted to know why in tarnation certain orders weren't put through.
And I had to hustle and get all the information from scratch and muddle
along as best I might. And muddle I did. (Aside: those durned Emerson
Electric, wished they were in hell) And then the fun commenced. Every
time I laid the receiver on its hook, the darn phone rang again. I think
the word went round that I was boss for a week and people just shoved
a lot of extra work my way. I answered letters and out of town calls.
I called up people and arranged dates for orders. (Delivery dates) And
if I hadn't been so busy I'm sure I'd have suffered from swelled head.
I know there is one call that will linger in my memory forever, something
to tell my grandchildren about. It seems Radio Station WOR sent in three
large mica condensers to be inspected. They were found to be OK and I
was told to get in touch with them and tell them to call for those condensers
again. Well, I called the number given me and asked for a certain man,
at a certain extension, and started to politely explain about the situation.
Blank silence on the other end of the wire. Then "One moment, I will transfer
this call for you", buzz, buzz, buzz. "Hello", "This is C.D. calling,
blah, blah." Only to be told that they were sorry but they knew nothing
of the matter and would transfer the call. To make a long painful story
short, they transferred me to about eight different extensions none of
which was the right one. I got the Music room, the library, and God knows
what else. But then I was hoarse and beginning to froth at the mouth.
I gripped the telephone firmly to keep from shouting and going stark staring
mad, and with my last gasp I got the Engineering Dept. And just as I was
sinking fast, found someone who spoke my language. I can honestly say,
by that time I was ready to be wrung out and hung up to dry! It was such
an awful week, too, a storm a day on the average. One night coming home
we were caught properly by the oncoming storm. It came down in buckets,
and we were both soaked to the skin in no time at all. Branches and small
twigs came crashing down, and the rain drove with such force I could scarcely
see out of my glasses. It was simply awful. When we got home we undressed
in the kitchen, right down to the skin, every stitch was soaked, you could
just wring it out, the kitchen was flooded by the time we got through.
Went to Mt. Vernon. Wasn't Pop and Joe surprised when
I walked in. And Mom. Good ol' Mom! Went shopping together and had a jolly
Why do I quarrel so much lately? I'm all nervous and irritable.
Went to the BCC Thurs. morning and didn't get to work till half past nine.
Ray made me very angry. What has he in mind when he says he wants a girl
to take [Wilber's] place. There is no need for another girl. We need a
fellow not a girl. If he thinks I'll break in a girl for him only to get
tat grand bum's rush--he's sadly mistaken. He can do his own dirty work.
439 West Sixth St.
October 29, 1937
Friends, Romans, Countrymen!
The ax has fallen, the blow has been struck! The unbelievable and incredible
has happened to me. I've been transferred. Last week they laid off quite
a number of people, all over even in the stockroom, inspection and receiving
dept., even Margy, the girl that got married recently, was one of the
unlucky ones. My helper is no more either. And now Ray has met his Waterloo
too, I don't mean he's fired, but the nearest thing to it. He is not in
authority anymore, Weasel is. And may be you know what a hard one he is.
Anyway theyve remodeled or rather torn down all we've stood for,
and gone back to the old style of handling returns. Orders and credits
etc. go through the production department now of which Ted Wessel is in
charge, drat his ornery hide! Therefore and thusly it was decided there
would be no need of a girl, would Ray need an assistant to help him open
packages? And that is what the job amounts to, now. So when Ray came back
and told me the bad news I was really prepared for most anything, mostly
the gate. But it seems it pays to have a husband in the lab, because he
spoke to Mr. Bailey and Mr. Reid so I got a summons to appear in the dry
electrolytics Monday morning and take up where I left off a year ago,
namely testing. Well, that's life, here I spent all my time trying to
get out of the factory and find myself right back again, and frankly I
don't like it one bit. But in modified Kipling "A job's a job for all
that--" I only wished to goodness Jere would make twenty-five a week and
I'd gladly stay home and take care of Winkie.
All kidding aside, the plant's in an awfully bad shape,
as slow as could be, some days the paper and mica departments are as deserted
as a playground at night. It may be only their usual slack month but just
the same it looks bad.
About Ray, you know, curiously enough I was the first
one to know about it, quite by accident. I went to Miss Jaeger about some
business and while I was waiting for her to make up her mind about it,
I happened to glance down at the desk at a letter idly as you do sometimes,
and saw that it was a letter from Mr. Beyer to the effect that the service
dept. was now in the hands of Mr. Wessel and R. Steckel to refer in all
matters to Mr. Wessel etc. etc. etc. I went back and asked Ray about it
and he was quite thunderstruck and wanted to know in detail what the letter
was about and whether it contained something about two weeks notice. But
after the first shock it didn't seem to faze him a bit. I know it would
just have broken my heart if it had happened to me, because it amounts
to a demotion and can only mean that the work wasn't satisfactory to the
"higher-ups." Practically everybody in the place knows it now, but
Ray doesn't care and goes blithely on his way, frankly I couldn't do it,
I'd get out before I'd get kicked out. But--that's his business, and I'm
not connected with the service department anymore, so why should I worry.
But I know he's going to miss his Girl-Friday, now that he has to do all
his own dirty work. Any maybe I can regain all the pounds I lost in chasing
from our place to the office and back. But I, I shall miss the free and
easy time I had, I shall miss my daily trip to the cafeteria and the talkfests
I held with all my friends, being a tester lets all that out, you test
and don't do anything else but. They claim you make much more in bonuses
and that, but I don't know, I have to be shown. And I'd much rather have
an easy time of it and make only twelve-fifty a week. Oh well, those days
have gone forever. Alas poor Yorick!
Jere did me the honor to let me wait for two whole hours
and thirty long minutes tonight, I had a magazine and read it through
from cover to cover four times while he gallivanted off someplace with
Greenberg. So I had to get even and made him take me to Tony's for spaghetti
dinner. Not much else that's news. Went to the show last night and saw
100 Men and a Girl" Diana Whateverhernameis [it was Deanna Durbin] is cute and sings marvelously
well for a kid her age. And the music they had in the picture was right
up Jere's alley. Had Guy up for lunch last Saturday. It seems funny having
somebody to eat with again, gee I'd gladly make a whole bushel full of
French fries for you if I could have you two up for dinner again. Everybody
I know lives so far away. In all the outlying districts like Islin and
North Plainfield. Say did you read that girl got off scott-free? Gosh,
it isn't safe to play with these Islin girls. They can shoot their lovers
and get away with it. By the by, they haven't quite forgotten you, Dotty,
every once in awhile somebody will ask about you.
Got my permanent Saturday and what a dreary rainy day
it was too. Went to the library yesterday and got one of those sick spells
again. I wonder what the matter can be? Felt too sick to move but
when [Harvey] and Ann came I raised myself and went out after all. It
did me good. Heard a lecture on "Spiritualism" but it turned out to be
just another [séance]. I would like to go Wednesday [though. Flat night
to be aground].
Went to the concert with Jere and [Myron Baxter]. It was
beautiful and that harpist could play. Was dreadfully timed though
Inveigled Jere to take me to see " Lost Horizon." I thought
it was [expertly and superbly done]. But my darling did not think so.
We almost quarreled over it on the way home.
"Fools names and fools faces are always seen in public
places." That's pretty good...I am about to see Ali Baba Goes to Town and I think I'm pretty much of a fool myself. It's probably awful. The
typical Cantor picture. But I don't care. I want to be amused. It's
lonely home. The [raining] doesn't make it any better. It isn't any fun
to putter around the house when it's so dreary. With Jere away the evening
will be so long. Got a card from brother Joe. Wish he'd come this Sunday.
I like to have him and he comes so seldom.
Jere called up this afternoon to say he was bringing Myron
up to dinner. Had to rush out and buy a nice juicy steak. Dinner was
good. Went to hear [German's] play after and he was marvelous. Had a cup
of hot chocolate down on Front Street after. My, but it was cold out.
Jere dragged me off to the Greenberg's tonight. They're
good-natured people and all that but I feel I haven't anything in common
with them. Why do people [bore] me so much? Made a date with her to go
skating and regretted it immediately after.
Read that damn book
Gone with the Wind until after
one o'clock. Any then couldn't go to sleep for thinking about it. Women
are such queer creatures!
Went to Mt. Vernon on the 9 o'clock. train this morning.
Helped Mother wrap packages all afternoon, then we went shopping together.
Jere was there when we went back, the poor darling was pie-eyed and oh
so sick. Mother and I trimmed the tree, it looked just beautiful.
Had Tante Rose and Uncle Lawrence also Eddie for dinner.
W[ere any gumm,] it was [lost] after dinner gave out the presents and
wasn't Santa Claus good to me!! 3 pr stockings, silver for 6, slip, nightgown
and skating set. Jere got shirts, pajamas, scarf, and sox. Played bingo
and it was fun. Everyone went home early so we went to be and read. Had
oodles to drink and a lovely time.
Ten for dinner again. Jere made me angry--dashing out
like that, he always has to spoil things. He doesn't care about my feelings.
Big Edmund and his son dropped in in the afternoon. I'm
awfully sorry for the poor man, he lost his wife. We had a hilarious rip-roaring
time, the wonder is I didn't get sick, drinking so much, but it made me
feel good. I even danced the hula-hula, everyone thought it was marvelous.
Joe kind of spoilt things with his crude talking.
Cleaned up for Mom. See I got up a quarter after five
this morning to get Jere and Joe up and make their breakfast. Talked a
while, then mother came too. Went back to bed at half past seven and slept
two hours. Soon, I was tired, had a headache and no wonder left at half
past four to get the six o'clock. train. If course I missed it. Got home
almost eight o'clock. And so to bed. Felt kind of irritable. The long
trip and all these suitcases and packages.
Cleaned my own house today. Good. Waxed the floors and
dusted up. 'S funny I didn't get any Christmas cards this year, what's
the matter with everyone?
Had intended to go early as last week but Jere promised
to come home at noon. So I cleaned the house and dressed leisurely. Noon
passed and no Jere. I was all ready to start and not hide our nor hair
of him. Called the plant and Ann said he was out to lunch. Oh I was furious!
Had a bit of lunch myself and around two he turned up. Took the 3:18 into
New York with Wayne. Got to Mt. Vernon around half past five. Mother was angry but I placated her by going shopping
with her. This business is getting me down. I almost wish I had no family.
They're such a drag on me. Smoothing things over--first with mother and
then Jere and sitting as if on [dispauite] is wearing me thin. I can't
stand it much longer. I love my mother, but I love my husband more. Either
one or the other feels slighted all the time. And I cannot and will not
jeopardize my marriage. Jere always comes first. If I could only get him
to realize it. He always claims I say so but my actions don't show it.
Heck, perhaps I do prevaricate a little, but I have to. How else can I
keep them from flying at each other.
Saturday, January 1, 1938
New Year's Day
Well this New Year started with a bang!! Mother and Dad
left for the movies, and Jere and I went at it hammer and tongs. I didn't
mean to hurt his feelings. I just wanted to be left alone. And he made
me simply miserably unhappy about the whole unfortunate experience.
I have never know him to be like that so so [furiously]
passionate. I suppose it was those cartoons, they did tricks to me, too,
but it worked the other way, they disgusted me, [so that is love].
Had a nice dinner. Afterwards everyone fell asleep and
Jere, and I retired to the backroom, the dog house I should say, and read
awhile. Then went out for a soda and a walk. But we had fun! It was almost
like old times [humming] every step of the way. I'm sorry he went home
so early, I missed him so. I love my darling ever so much, still and forever.
Though he seems to forget sometimes that I do. To be in love must we be
"one soul and one thought"? Always?
Well, this is a happy new year. I certainly never
expected such a joyous and hearty welcome. So what am I supposed to do--grovel
at his feet and beg his pardon abjectly. I'm quite sure I don't understand
him at all anymore and I really don't know what to do about it. I'm certain
I never said I'd be home at six and if I had and did show up at 7:15 that's nothing to make such a row about. And I'm supposed
to forget and forgive anything that's offered me. Like heck I will!!!
We had a good heart to heart talk and finally straightened
things out. My little love is a queer duck and made up of some queer complexes.
I suppose I have to watch out for it, to keep him happy. Though why he
should be jealous I don't know, perhaps it pleases me just a little too.
I wonder if there will always be this tug o'war between
mother and him. I can't seem to make him understand---he's simply stubborn
about it. I do love him more than anyone, more than mother; he is first,
last, and always.
Got up early and met Jere for lunch. Got into S.P. at
half past eleven and stopped in the receiving dept to talk to Tessie and
Ray. It was fun, wasting time talking and not having to bother about work.
Jere was glad to see me, the honey. Went to the bank with him.
Took the bus clear into Plainfield and shopped. Managed
to get rid of most of my money. Went to the library and a pesky dog followed
me and barked every step of the way and tried to [yank] on my [book]
Wayne and Guy came up for dinner tonight. It's fun having
company, we had a good time.
Had ham, but oh, the hole it made in my budget. I just
love to entertain, but I have such little money these days.
Forgot to mention we resolved not to smoke anymore and
so far we both succeeded. Jere's appetite improved and I believe he gained
a few pounds. He does get terribly irritable at times but I think that
will blow over. My own sweet darling. Time just flies and yet seems to
stand still. I love him passionately still and somehow more than ever.
Can't look at him without a catch at my heart.
Got up with Jere and walked him part of the way until
somebody picked him up. Promised to meet him at noon and did. It got very
cold though--the ground was mushy and a foolish dog followed me all the
way to S.P. My darling was uncomfortable on he way back but it was fun.
Afterwards took out the bike to get my bit of shopping and Peggy (Peggy!)
followed me all the way to the store barking every step of the way. But
I couldn't be mad at him, he looks so wistful, poor doggie.
It really isn't fair to Jere to snap all the time. I see
him only a few hours at a time. I should think I could humor him and spoil
him a little. I love him, and I have the whole day to myself, so surely
I can afford to be as lovable as I know how to him when he is with me.
It's [snowing] this morning and darned cold.
It's funny it's the tenth day without cigarettes and I
don't miss them at all. I only hope Jere stays firm.
Nothing particular. Cleaned house and messed around with
the stamps. We were absolutely dead broke. No coffee, no money, no sugar,
no nothing. That must not happen again. It snowed beautifully all day.
Jere went to Greenberg to play chess. I walked part of
the way with him and went to the library. Winkie and I had fun in the
snow. Found some good books on housekeeping. Am going to study them carefully.
Sweetie pie came back early. I was glad. Made hot chocolate.
Walked Jere to Randolph this morning. In spite of my resolution
we had to scrap first. Oh dear, I dont think its me. Met him
for lunch, too. We did have fun, at least I did. Went to Ben Franklin
market and things are marvelously cheap there. The only trouble
is one has to carry one's purchases home and oh what a time I had. Half
way home the bag burst, and I had to leave one package on somebodys
doorstep while I lugged the other home and then hurried back for it. I
should have taken the bus. Were going to Harrys tonight to
see his trailer.
We had loads of fun last night at Harrys. Their
trailer is adorable. It was snowing beautifully and we had a lovely drive
through the swirling snow flakes. It made the most exquisite scenes. After
supper tonight I coaxed Jere to undress and sure as shooting Guy knocked
at the door to ask J to go to a handball game. He went. Ten minutes later
they came back for me. And I went. And I enjoyed it immensely. We were
there over two hours and it seemed like no time at all. Had a snow ball
Morning as usual. Jere had a haircut and of course I trotted
along like a good lil wifie. Did my shopping though first. Played
together all afternoon a bit rough, but we can take it. It was fun, surely,
and I love being married--to Jere.
Felt, oh so sleepy, after last night. Heard the laundryman
knock but didnt bother to answer. Felt too drowsy.
Got up with Jere and walked with him almost to the SP
line. It was terribly cold, I felt it at first. But I think its
always fun to walk with my darling even if I do freeze a little. Theres
a lot of snow on the ground and very slippery. Winkie had a grand time
though playing through the snow. Washing and hemmed curtains. Nice! Sat
with Jere in the workshop and straightened out my scrap book.
Jere came home for lunch today. It was nice, sort of something
to break the day, something to wait for. Got the laundry this morning
and spent all day ironing. Just rushed out at 4 o'clock. to buy a few
things. Damn it, I spent all I laundry man every bit of it was for a necessity.
What am I going to do? Jeres going out after, he would! Id
like him to say with me. Went out to the library, stopped in for J on
the way back.
Got very, very angry at Jere for calling me such nasty
names. Didnt speak to him at all anymore. He really is a trial.
I had made a bet this afternoon with him--and lost. Now Im supposed
to do everything he wants me to without so much as a flick of an eyelash.
I did do the typing he asked me to. And now Im mad at him. But I
suppose Ill have to be a good sport and still do if he asks me to.
Didnt speak until he came sheepishly up to me to
say good-bye. Kissed him, but didnt say a word. He came home for
lunch though, and we made up.
Listened to the opera and then went shopping.
Stayed in the workshop almost all day. Just as usual--went
out for the paper and read. Had a swell battle with my dear one after
we went to bed. He was too hot and said so. That wasnt all, he yelled
and kicked and I was mad as hornets.
Always battling--! If it isnt one thing then its
another. But he came and was so tender and gentle I couldnt resist
making up. Jere came home awfully late for lunch, thought for a minute
he wouldnt come at all. Fixed a cot in the workshop, now its
a little more comfortable.
Went to Ben Franklin on the bike cause it was kind of
nice. It would be my luck to have to start to rain on my way home. And
who do you think I saw! Max Blerd and he [waved] to me. My my. Just made
it to the library too. Got The Goryms Hussy. Its a most interesting
book. I like her. Walked to see Wayne whos supposed to be [sick].
Peg the dog went with us. But he wasnt home. And it was so cold.
burr. But we had loads of fun.
Jere got his little ol microscope out and is playing
with it. I think its fun too if I could get near it! Golly, its
got cold again. I started to sew up mothers blouse. Uff!! Its
Did not get dressed today. Arent I lazy! A salesman
for milk stopped by this noon and didnt we have a talk-fest about
milk. Betty came up later and joined us, too.
Went out to get coffee before Jere came for lunch and
then he was late after all. Poor lambie, the [felm] missed him and he
had to walk all the way from the City Line.
Sweetie pie came home way past two o'clock. Id just
about given him up. Listened to the opera awhile and then went shopping.
Betty came up and we had quite a lark. Weve been having fun these
past few days with the microscope. Jere woke up in the middle of the night
and made quite a scene. I got awfully angry too and yanked off the curtain
but he came and made up to me later. He was smart, mentioning that article
letter to my dead husband, he knows anything like that melts
me like wax.
We had a glorious time riding the bike today. It was so
nice, almost like a spring day. Riding was exhilarating. We visited Gert
and Kay and got home just in time before at dark. Boy were we tired.
Didnt feel so good today, that awful headache all
day. Went to the grocery store before noon, tried to be back by twelve
and my precious babe had to be late.
Washed clothes all morning didnt feel very good
after. Of course--there was a reason. Jere called up and said he wouldnt
be home for lunch. Felt terribly lonely. Went to the library and brought
back a batch of nice books. Betty was home with a cold and she came up
Had a fierce stomachache all day. Went shopping this afternoon
and took the dogs. Should have taken my bike, I hate to carry all those
heavy packages. Wanted to have spaghetti as a surprise for Jere. But it
seems the sauce wasnt right. He was awfully sweet about it though.
When I opened it to see what it was, I accidentally got that hot steaming
sauce right in my eyes. Not hurt though. Later we went out to try to buy
the right sauce and it was made with clams. Tasted simply awful.
So we had a very meager supper of bread and butter. Too bad!
Woke up this morning out of a deep, deep dream [daunbed]
sleep to hear Mr. S. calling me to the phone. Sweetie pie said he wouldnt
be home for lunch. It was raining too, a steady drizzly downpour. Went
back to bed, had a headache. Didnt get up til three. Betty came
up. I wasnt very pleased, but it was just as well. Oh yes. Tessie
called me up today. That was a surprise.
What happened last night seems just like a bad dream.
But you cant explain the ache and pain away!! Why do we quarrel
like this all the time. I dont want to, Im sure.
He was home this morning. Slept til almost eleven. Went
for a ride and got his watch. Everything was fine til this afternoon.
He got a [call] again and this time I walked out from under. Went to the
show. Saw Mr. Deeds goes to Town with Gary Cooper. I liked
it so very much. Heard it on the radio once, but the picture is excellent.
Came home and things are neutral. Very well. I couldnt help myself,
I had to break the silence. Doggone it I do love him so much.
Gee, didnt we have fun today. Went out for a ride
and it was grand. Came home and read all day. Mrs. Smythe sent up an apple
pie, yum-yum it was good. She is really and truly nice. Yesterday
I went on an errand for her and she sent up a grapefruit. Id rather
she didnt, but I do think it was nice of her. It solved my dessert
Well, well, the larder is quite empty. This is terrible.
There really isnt anything in the house, not a thing. I bummed from
Jere so we could eat. Why cant I keep back some money, but somehow
I never have enough one way or the other. And things run out when I least
expect them. I greatly fear five dollars is not enough anymore. I hope
its the prices that have gone up and not my managing ability that has
fallen down on the job.
I got mad at ol' man Smyth I did. Jere and I were fooling
and I fell out of the bed ,and he opened his door and started to scold
as loud as he could. He makes me sick. I wish we had a house to ourselves.
The old nuisance.
Went out on the bike--shopping. Got caught in the rain
again coming home. Gee, I never can reconcile my needs to my income. The
budget simply won't balance. I buy the groceries and pay my bills and
am broke for the rest of the week.
Went out on the bike for Jeres watch. Wasnt
ready yet. That wristwatch is beginning to give me a pain. Forgot mothers
package, so went out again with Betty. It got awfully cold and sharp,
and Betty just didnt want to go home. I was so cold I could hardly
hold on. On the way back we found a lot of Colliers Magazines lying
around, took some home.
Got up early and cut out a valentine from the Colliers,
made a real pretty homemade valentine heart for Jere, now I can take that
money and buy a pair of suspenders. I did and who dyou think I met,
Marge! of all people. Poor kid, it seems her marriage didnt turn
out so well. Its a shame, she deserves a little happiness. She came
home with me, and we had some coffee and wept on each others shoulder,
so to speak. I feel awfully grateful for my husband, he is so sweet even
with all his faults.
Went to the show last night. Saw The Life of Emile
Zola with Paul Muni. It was simply excellent. Went shopping with
Jere this afternoon, that is we went as far as Park then he went home.
I bought a pair of red slippers for my valentine. On the way back saw
a table I wanted. When I got home found a red heart candy laying on my
dresser, the sweetheart. We went out and after much dickering he consented
to the table but we finally did buy a better one. Cost $8.00 Whoa, I have
to make that up and dont know how. But its a nice table, and
I like it.
Slept all morning in the work shop til Betty came up.
Got dressed and got the paper. Went to library Read!
Felt awfully flue but had no money to go to a show. Was
restless and my ear ached me, have a little [but] and it wouldnt
let me sleep.
I made a pie--such a pie. I wish I had a picture!! We
laughed and laughed and I for one havent got over it yet. Jere felt
blue and wanted to go somewhere so I went down and borrowed the missing
quarter and went to the show. And of, was it swell. The awful truth
with Gary Grant and Irene Dunn. Oh dear I laughed so much, my sides ache.
It was funny.
Laura sent us a letter and some pictures. Shes a
sweet kid!! Went out shopping. Was I loaded, didnt think Id
get home. Looked up Marge and got her to come over. Had quite a talk fest.
Went to the show again. Saw Navy Blue and Gold over twice.
But it really was swell entertainment. I like it very much. So did Jere.
Almost overslept this morning. Got up after eleven. Wrote
to Laura and his mother. S gotten dark. Wonder if itll rain
or snow again.
Dont know whats gotten into Jere lately--can
it be Spring fever? He wants to go to a movie almost every night. Went
to the Oxford tonight. That was the only show left we hadnt seen
yet. There were three pictures, all mediocre. I didnt like that
movie house at all. It has the oddest smells. Went to the Del Mont
for an ice cream. Had loads of fun.
Was a bit tired this morning. Didnt wake up till
eleven. Had to hurry to give the house at least a lick and a promise before
Jere came in. Went shopping late in the afternoon. Took the bike but it
got almost too dark by the time I came back. Has been raining all day.
Listened to Lohengrin with one ear and read a most interesting
book on medicine. Jere gets the oddest impulses at the oddest times doesn't
We were very, very lazy. Didnt have breakfast til
half past eleven. Went back to bed and lolled until three. Got dressed
and went out for the paper. Had a nice little supper and afterwards Jere
dressed and took me to see "Tovarich" with C. Colbert and Ch.
Boyer. We hiked all over town for it. Thought it was at the Liberty but
it played in the Paramount 80 cents tsk tsk we are ]surely]
extravagant. We stand for a lot but when we once break there is
Jere called up to say hed not be home for lunch.
Went in on the bicycle. Had a cup of coffee with him on the way home looked
up Ann Woodall. Gosh theyre very out in the woods now. Had an awful
job finding them. But had a lovely visit. Went to the show again. Can
you imagine!! Saw [Twanch]. We looked all over town for it.
Id forgotten at which theater it played. It was the Paramount. How
on earth are we to pay the rent?
Slept til half past ten.
Made breakfast and we were just having it in bed when Ann came! Promised
to come over this afternoon. So hurried and washed the dishes and cleaned
up, also starched shirts and hung the wash up. At two I went out. We had
a nice ride, went all over, it was fun. Felt too lazy to cook, so bought
some delicatessen stuff, and we had that in bed too as it was gloriously
lazy. Jere stayed in bed all day and read Mutiny on the Bounty.
Rainy today. Jere didnt come home for lunch so couldnt
go shopping. [found] for awhile then tried to type a letter to mother.
And the typewriter broke. So I took it down to First St. to have it fixed.
The robbers want 25 cents. Met Margaret on the way. Shes keeping
house for Harold Steufer. Walked part of the way home with her. In all
this rain, but shucks, had nothing to lose. Got a letter from Laura too.
Went shopping this afternoon. Got my typewriter. Cost
me 50 cents. I missed my bike to take all the bundles home. When I got
back there was a note on the door from Ann. Shed been there and
of course I was out. There was some commotion downstairs at half
past ten tsk, tsk.
Got up early and worked a bit. Wrote to Mother. Jere came
awfully late for lunch. Thought he wasnt coming and put the things
away. Luckily the soup was still hot--Ann came again in the afternoon.
We went for a walk looking for a cheap used bike. Nothing
doing. Walked her almost all the way home. Got terribly cold! She invited
us for dinner Sunday.
Met Jere on the bike at three. We went to Liberty St.
to inquire about Poodle jumpers. Jeres been daydreaming
all week about em, so we went to find out some particulars about
em. Discussed it over lunch and went all over town looking for some
Harry came over around twelve to say that Ann wasnt
feeling well, etc. I wasnt sorry. Bed was a very nice place to be
on a day like this. It was very dreary and drizzly. We both stayed in
bed all day long. It was a nice rest.
Cleaned house thoroughly. It was fun to [dust] all [our]
furniture and [lg]
Went shopping after lunch. Rode back with Jere on the
bike with the dogs in the basket. Came home through the woods. We had
fun. Had a letter from Dot special delivery to say theyll
be out Saturday. Thatll be nice, I thought theyd forgotten
Oh gosh, but it was cold. I met Jere and after lunch rode
back with him, and I almost turned into an icicle. Id just gotten
warmed up when Betty asked me to go downtown with her. She wanted to change
her tickets. So we did. And it was still cold. After supper Jere decided
on a movie again. We saw Lady Believe with Sally [Eillers]
and another Charlie Chan, this time on Broadway. It was entertaining.
Didnt expect my sweetie pie for lunch and was quite
surprised when the gate slammed, and the dogs ran to meet him. Was just
cleaning up the workshop. Had to run out on the bike to get coffee, and
because I was in a hurry, I had to wait for 30 minutes. Gosh, I was flustered.
Woke up at seven this morning to let the dogs out and
it was snowing. Later it rained and thawed and turned to slush. Isnt
that luck. I expect the Kodes at three, hope its nice then. They
came around four o'clock. And oh what a jolly time we had. Though I must
say I made an ass of myself. I cant understand how it happened,
I only had a few glasses of wine and I went out like a light. Dont
remember a thing about last night. They told me they had an awful time
putting me to bed. Im ashamed of myself but I still cant explain
it. Woke up this morning and was deathly sick. I've never been so sick
in my life. I only wished I could die. My stomach was terribly upset.
Couldnt keep anything down. Got dressed, and we went for a walk
at noon, and it made me feel better. Read the paper and played Rumba
all afternoon. It was fun, really. Had supper and listened to the radio.
Took em to the station at 9 oclock. Had an [viewvan] and so
Got up early and gave the house a good and thorough cleaning.
The floors were a sight. But it was fun having company.
worked hard all day ironing.
West shopping in the afternoon with the dogs. Met Betty
on the way home and went to the library with her. Also paid the rent,
and Mrs. H. made me so mad! Always this allusion to the little dogs.
Im sick of it. After supper Jere felt restless again. Went to the
Oxford. Saw three mediocre pictures. Came home at midnight. Sorry we went.
Was terribly tired this morning. It was cold and gray.
Woke up again at eleven and it was snowing hard. Snow in March!!! Jere
didnt come home for lunch. Loafed around til three. Went out to
the Park [Stomes]. [snow] was most gone til then.
Was nice today--snows almost all gone. Got up early,
cleaned the house and went to meet Jere on the bike. Took Winkie with
me in the basket. Somehow or other she fell or jumped out and cracked
her poor little head on the concrete road. I was so sorry. She
doesn't seem to be hurt though. Just finished washing my hair when
Ann came. She didnt stay long. Promised to come over Sunday afternoon.
Jere came home around 1:30, had lunch. Went to First Street
with the dogs. It was glorious weather. Came back and inveigled Jere to
go for a ride. It was swell, we went all around over to and then back
to Hillside Cemetery around to Harrys and landed in Netherwood,
then home along 6th St. Spent the rest of the day in the work shop reading.
Got up at nine. Jere said Harry would call for us at noon
and I wanted to be ready. It started to rain and looked terribly dreary.
I began to get bored. Wrote to mother and idled around til two o'clock.
Then Harry came in his car. We had a jolly good time there. After supper
went to the lecture again. All about the Philippines and Japan and 2 reels
about [mother] o Life. Oh but I hated to give my last quarter!!!
Harry bought ice-cream on the way back, and we ate it in our house.
It still rained, harder than ever. And all day. Started
to read and listened to the radio. Got very restless, got out my letters
and diary and browsed in the past. It was fun. I like to do that. But
when I try to interest Jere its just no go. He doesn't care.
Made me feel a little bad. He was hard at work in his workshop so was
wise enough not to bother him.
There was a knock at the door this noontime, and when
I investigated there stood a blue uniform with shinny buttons asking to
see my dog license. Had none and told him so. He said hed be back
tomorrow. Oh well, I guess I must get one. Its still raining. Will
it every let up, I wonder.
Still raining, damn it. Went out after Jere went back
to work, and made the rounds. City hall for dog license, gas bill, 5&10
and finally King Arthurs Market. Got rid of about 15.00. Oh dearie
me! Got mad at Jere about something and wouldnt draw his bath water.
I spoil that fellow, god damn it. Woke up at three o'clock. And he wasnt
there saw a light and thought hed gone to the work shop. But he
was only in the kitchen getting a glass of milk. Anyway we made up.
Looked for a sign of change in the weather first thing
this morning, but there isnt any. Still going strong. Have had a
headache all day. And Winkie is so restless she drives me crazy. Went
out a couple of times but it doesn't do any good. After supper Jere
and I went to the Liberty. It was still pouring. We saw Irene Dunn in
" High, Wide, [and] Handsome" and some kind of mystery story with John
Barrymore. My but that man has slipped badly in the last five years.
It was gorgeous today. A real touch of spring in the air.
Met Jere for lunch and escorted him back again. Cleaned the floors and
windows and then took the dogs to the library. Came home and saw Betty
in the street playing with the kids so I went out too. I had real fun
burning the skipping rope for them. Jere and I went to see Snow
White and the 7 dwarfs and a cuter picture I havent seen since
"Three little Pigs." It was adorable and comical. Also the Buccaneer with Fredric March.
Got up at the crack of dawn almost. It was lovely--there
sure is Spring in the air. After lunch we took a ride on the bikes and
on 8th St. I heard and then saw a red cardinal, by all thats holy!!!
I never expected to have such good fortune. Now I know Spring is here!
Went towards South Plainfield and saw a house for rent. Inquired about
it and felt very much as if we wanted it. But on sober second thought
decided against it. We have a cozy little place so to heck with Mrs. Hubbard.
Forgot to mention the Brass-button came at
noon yesterday and asked to see the license. I heard him come and grabbed
Princess and stuck him in the closet and left my darling to face the blue
menace. Alls well!!!
Got up and it was so glorious. Went with Jere to SP, it
was fun. Met him at night too and for lunch. At five o'clock. we
went home the round about way. It was glorious, Spring is here indeed!
Went to the show again, didnt want to go, but Jere bummed some money
from Donnie and we went to the Oxford. They gave me a teaspoon, but it
was very dear at the price. The pictures were, as usual, mediocre!
Well, Im working again! Went with Jere on the bike
to work this morning. And when I got back Mrs. Smyth called me to the
phone. It was Ray. Would I come to work for a week? Oh well, I might as
well recoup my fortunes. That will make me catch up on that last week.
Then the going will be smoother again. The fist day was all right, but
I dont like it. Was cranky last night and oh so tired. Now why?
I lent my bike to Blanch and brought sandwiches and ate
them by the brook. Work goes on pretty steadily. In a week Ill certainly
be done. Went to the Park Store for food. After dinner we went to the
movies again. Again! Im getting fed up on mediocre second-rate pictures.
Was so tired!
It got quite cold today--steadily! By the time we went
home the wind cut through me like ice. I was numb and of course as cranky
as a sore thumb. I wanted to take the bus. Found a letter from Mother.
I must go and see her soon. We went out to dinner. It was very good. But
somehow or other I [broke] my filling, now I have to go see the dentist
again. And oh dear that--the tooth--he always hurts so much with his drill.
Work about as usual. A little fun, a bit of gossip and
writing reports all day long. Ray brought me two Esquires as a token of
his appreciation. Dear, dear. Decided to go to the Premier tonight right
from work. It was marvelous. Saw "Snow White and the 7 dwarfs"
again. Also "The Hurricane." I loved it. After the show bought
some cold stuff at the delicatessen and had supper. That was at 10 o'clock.
Oh but Im tired.
Saturday, March 26
Got up with Jere. He helped make breakfast. Cleaned house
and chatted with Mrs. Smythe. Got those two letters from Jeres mother
and Laura at last! Was glad to hear from them. Answered right away. I
wish I could do something real nice for Jeres mother. I feel terribly
sorry about it all. She has her burden!
Went over to Gert in the afternoon. It was a little windy
but otherwise nice. Had a nice little visit with Kay. The going home was
hard--we were against the wind! Had supper and I listened to the radio
while Jere worked in the work shop. Gee, I hate to think of going to work
Monday, March 28
Well I have the work in the [Semi] Dept almost cleaned
up and tomorrow afternoon I shall have to go over to the [Dry Electrolytics]
and I just hate the idea. Schafer played me such a dirty trick I simply
hate to lay myself open to him again. But then I suppose I can stick it
out for two months. Weve got to have some clothes. If only
the girls were a little friendlier--Im not used to being snubbed
like that. Theyre all alike--the cats. Ready and willing to cut
ones throat! But I like Therese, shes a nice clean kid.
Well, it wasnt so bad. I find it tiresome
though to sit still and do one thing all day. And my back hurt me so.
It started to rain on the way home.
I must have caught cold yesterday. I felt terribly sick
this morning when I got up. Such fierce cramps--I could hardly stand up.
Felt nauseous and dizzy. Of course I didnt go to work. Spent the
whole day in bed. Jere, my sweet hubby, came home for lunch, to look after
me. Got up and made something, the pain was most all gone, only an occasional
twinge. Betty came up and stayed awhile. Shes a sweet kid. Jere
told me that Harold took ill with very bad [grave]. Too bad about him.
Back as usual. Im getting used to it again. Had
to work overtime and didnt get home til after seven. Harold came
over and explained--I'm sick to death of his explanations. They dont
mean a thing. Ill just stick it out til I've the money I want,
and then they can all go to Hades. We went out and bought Jere a shirt
and some things then went to a show. Came home and was too tired to eat.
Worked a half a day this morning. Had lunch with Here
and went home. Went to First Street shopping.
Worked hard all morning to clean the house up good. Jere
worked all day on inventory. He came home for lunch though and brought
Gert Geissler. Went shopping again in the afternoon with Betty and spent
too damned much money. Betty gave me the cutest little jacket. Ill
have to do something for her soon. By the way, we had some swap
and trade this morning didnt we!!
Jere woke me up this morning at
half past five--the [lug]. I made coffee and then went back to sleep.
At nine he woke me up again. Made coffee and again went back to bed!!!
Got up at twelve, had lunch and went to the library. At night went to
the movie with Betty. Saw The Big Broadcast of 1938 was all
right, mostly [singing] and comedy but funny enough.
Monday, April 4
It was terribly cold coming home. I was most froze. doesn't
it ever get warm again. damn it. After supper, we went to the Liberty,
saw Wells Fargo with Frances Dee and Jole McCray and Double
or Nothing." Just another musical comedy blast em. We went
pretty late and saw only part of the first film, not even enough to make
sense. Jack Holt played in it. I think it was Under Suspicion."
Worked in the Receiving Dept all afternoon. It was fun.
Gee I miss that place, and Tessie is such a good kid. I like her better
than any girl in the plant. After supper Jere wanted to go out to a show.
Saw Of Human Hearts with Walter Huston and J. Stewart. It
was very very good. Also saw the Big Broadcast" over again.
Worked overtime tonight and what do you think, its
been snowing all day. This is awful. I thought Spring was here,
and weve got a blizzard! Got a letter from Jeres mother. Theyre
coming out for a few days after Easter. Itll be so nice. I always
had wanted her to. Answered her letter and wrote to Laura. Am tired now.
Came home a half hour earlier tonight and started to write
to Mother. Id like to go see her this weekend. Went to the [show]
Went in at nine o'clock. this morning and like a ninny
took the wrong time card. By the time I got straightened out the #20 boy
went by. Went home and took Jeres bike. And it started to rain,
and I was all drenched by the time I got there. Jere worked late and I
went home on the bus. It rained harder than ever. And this is the night
of the [coronation[ but we didnt go. Im sorry to disappoint
Sorry I had to work today. Until two o'clock. too. Went
home on the bike. Cleaned house and went shopping.
Just lazed all day. Washed my hair and the clothes and
cooked duck all afternoon. But it was good. I always have such good luck
with my poultry.
Seem to be catching on the work now. After being in the
red all week I finally made some bonus on Saturday. Well, well. After
a cold supper we went to the movies. Saw Robert Taylor in A Yank
at Oxford was pretty entertaining.
Ate our lunch with Henry this noon. Hes a good sort.
After supper went to the dentist and had my tooth fixed $2.00!!! only.
Had a lengthy conversation with Dr. Harris about astrology. Were there
until 10 o'clock by golly! But it was kind of interesting at that. But
I fear I have very little faith in astrology after all.
Came downstairs this morning and Jeres bike was
gone! Was still gone when he came to work at 10 o'clock. Seems as if its
really stolen. Cant get over it! They left mine there and just took
his! If that isnt a streak of bad luck. damn it. Went out after
supper to price bikes. Went over to Harrys friend about that racer.
Gee, but those people seem poor. Maybe they need that money. Came up First
St. and went to the Oxford.
Went in at 10 o'clock. this morning. Had to go to the
B.C.C. Harold came over and asked if Id mind testing foil. I didnt
and dont, what do I care what I do. It seems interesting but the
[framing] room is terribly hot and steaming. This afternoon they moved
me out into the winding room. Much better. Now if I can only get some
work to do everything is fine. No work all afternoon, went almost crazy.
Went out and bought Jere another bike $10.50. Were that much in
the red now. I hope it teaches us a lesson.
Went home at four o'clock. today. And went back at five
thinking to meet Jere. He was awfully quiet on the way home but wouldnt
say anything was wrong until we got home. Then the bad news came out.
He, along with the rest of the electric lab, was dismissed. Just like
that. I can hardly believe it. It seems so utterly incredible.
Went shopping with Betty. Now Im broke of course!
Oh well, well get along somehow. We always have.
Sunday, April 17
Jere got up and made breakfast and we served each other
our [natural] surprises.
Thursday, April 21
Got off at five to go to the train for Jeres mother.
Came home and found a letter from Dotty. Read the letter going to the
train and missed it, of course, [so] Im walking up Park. Had some
talk-fest. Mother looks good, and very nice in her new outfit. Am glad
Jeres out looking for a job so she wont have to know. I want
to make her stay as nice as we possibly can
Friday, April 22
It rained all morning in torrents. Jere didnt get
out and had to invent an excuse. Called up at noon to see what theyre
doing. Came home and we all went to the Oxford. Was all right. Came home
and made something to eat. And so to bed.
Saturday, April 30
Met Laura at the station. Ernest was with her. It was
so nice having young people for company. I persuaded Ernest to stay over
til tomorrow night. Went riding and walking and down to First Street shopping
and had a grand time.
Sunday, May 1
Got up at nine, had breakfast together. Went out to play
badminton. Took pictures and went to an empty lot to play ball. Boy did
we get exercise. After lunch went for a long ride with Ernest and Laura.
Relaxed a while, had dinner and then took E. to the train. And then home
and to bed. Was I tired, oh boy!!!
Monday, May 2
Jere started today in Aeronox. I've been thinking about
him all day wondering how he made out. He came home so very late--eight
o'clock. Laura and I met three trains then gave up. The next one was his.
When we all got back, the fellows were there. We had some time. L and
E went out later on. I like that kid, she and I could have lots of fun
together. Too bad she has to go back so soon.
Tuesday, May 3
Got off at noon to go home and have a little time with
Laura. We went out on the bikes and had scads of fun. Went shopping together
and then she packed and Betty and I took her to the train. Gosh, it seems
such a shame. She had a great time here.
Wednesday, June 8
I wonder why the fellows dont ever come up unless
specially invited. Is it because they dont like Jere enough or because
they dont enjoy themselves with us? They seem to feel at home and
they certainly stay long enough when they do come. They go over to Gerts
often enough. Oh well, I dont much care one way or the other except
for Jeres sake. And I dont like to mention it to Jere. He
might wonder and feel hurt.
It was terribly hot again yesterday. Dont know how
long Ill be able to stand it. I do wish something were definitely
decided about this position were in. Id like nothing better
than to stay here but I dont want to drag on indefinitely hoping
something will turn up. Its too much of a strain on us. Only a few
hours together and always tired. There never seems to be any time for
anything any more.
Have got a 16 [tritlon] now. And I've
just about had one from each dept. Checked out at 3:15 and went up to
receiving, wished I hadnt Ray can be such a nuisance with his impertinent
questions. He doesn't fool me a bit though. Came home at a quarter
of four went to the store with Betty and the dogs. Met Jere and we went
to the Strand. Saw Dr. Rhythm with B. Crosby and B. Lillie.
She is funny indeed, also Test Pilot with C. Gable and M.
Loy. The picture was good, but I think he is overrated as an actor. I
[very be mug]
Woke up at nine. Had a little rough and tumble, then breakfast.
Cleaned house in the afternoon. Betty and I worked in the garden. I bought
some grass seed and fixed the lawn. It rained later and a good thing it
was. Was tired but happy about the whole thing. Read until very late.
It was terribly hot and sticky. It stormed in the night and how. [Flash
cover]-- enough to scare a person under the covers
Woke up mad cause Jere didnt get me the news. I
got over it quick though. Had breakfast in bed. Was too hot for anything
so I coaxed Jere to take me to the show in the afternoon. He is such a
sweetheart. He got showered and dressed, and we saw Four men and
a Prayer, the prayer was Loretta Young. It was a nice picture. We
both liked it.
Tuesday, June 14
Im terribly tired this morning and of course as
cranky as a bee. Dont know whats the matter with me lately--I
complain and resent too much. Thats not like me and it wont
do. Its got to stop. I've got to look at things sensibly. I know
its impossible as yet for me to stay home. Weve got to have
a bit of money in the bank before we think of [something]. We finally
decided it would be best to move back to New York. Weve got to find
a place to move to first, and I dont know the last thing about the
residential places in NY We ordered a map of New York. Perhaps that will
help a little
Thursday, June 16
Didnt have much work yesterday, was finished with
the foil at ten o'clock. already. Frankly I wouldnt have minded
going home but Charlie had other ideas so I rolled [anodes]. Good grief,
what next!!! Hate that job, its tiresome. Worked til five-thirty. Seems
as though most people are pretty nice when you get to know them. I get
along nicely with everybody, and I think its because I genuinely
like people until they teach me not to. But nobody so far has really reached
the core of me except Jere. With him I can even be [lurid] and like it.
Poor Mr. hips has a terrible [encounter with a big [dumb brute] of a dog
last night. I thought he was killed for sure. Poor little doggie, he was
so scared he was simply paralyzed with fright. But thanks to our interference
there was no serious damage. Just dazed with shock, but hell be
There never was a such a morning, was all through by ten
o'clock. Nothing to do anywhere, tried to get Charlie, but he was always
in conference with Denver and Jawles. Hung around the ladies room with
Peggy, and we laughed silly with it all. Checked out at twelve went up
to the [winery] and had a nice chat with Ray and Tessie. Mostly with Ray
while Tessie was reading. Stayed there til three-thirty got my check and
finally went home. Got a notion I wanted my permanent then and there and
promptly went to the CSS and [they] began, got out at six all beautiful.
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Got up sort of early 9 o'clock. Jere went to get a haircut,
and I shopped. Wasted all morning walking and foolishly, but knuckled
down in earnest and cleaned house in the afternoon. Later we went for
a ride and had a scrap. It wouldn't be a day together if we didn't have
a few heated words.
Sunday, June 19, 1938
Went to the Strand this afternoon. Saw Bill Parse when
we came out. He said he was taking Arnolds place and Dr. Vogler
took Tolmens position and that between them everything was running
smooth. I told him I understood they had offered the job to Dr. Sfeckel
but he poo-pooed the idea. Now where did Ray get that notion and why tell
me. Why does he always try to seem important to me. I dont care
one whoop in hell, and besides I dont believe a word he says even
if it were true. He and his raises and his work. Ill never believe
he makes thirty-five or even twenty. The next time he tells me Ill
ask to see his check. That ought to stop it one way or the other.
The " Joy of Living" with Irene Dunn and Doug Fairbanks.
Tuesday, June 21, 1938
Honestly, Ray gives me a pain--! You cant say a
word in that lousy place, and he knows it two minutes later. That place
is like a sieve.
I dont know where he gets his ideas from anyway.
What did he mean by that crack that Jere works for Glassman. Mr. Glassman
is a specification writer and possibly he has anything to do with the
draftsmen. But Jere is not a draftsman. If he were, he would have told
me so. He is always trying to belittle Jere to me, and I wont have
Wednesday, June 22, 1938
Slower and slower--checked out at three fifteen today.
Just hung on by the skin of my teeth. Was kind of glad though.
Thursday, June 23, 1938
Business seems to get slower all the time. Got off at
twelve, stayed with Tessie till one. Sidney told me confidentially
of course that well have a four-day-a-week again soon. Thats
not so good. I hope I can hold out another month at 8 dollars a week.
Otherwise I dont know how well move, and I definitely want
Friday, June 24, 1938
Came through the fields again this morning. It was somewhat
foggy and the birds were at their liveliest. I love to come early in the
morning and watch them. Some are orange colored kind but couldnt
stop to watch it closer. Met Mr. Beyer on the way--hes a very friendly
man and never fails to greet me with a smile. This morning he asked in
passing if Id seen the pheasants. I was so surprised I could only
smile and nod.
Tuesday, June 28, 1938
Its been raining pretty steadily since Sunday. Its
too bad---we took Jeres suit to the cleaners on Saturday, and now
the poor lambie has to shiver in those blue flannels.
Friday, July 8, 1938
Merciful heavens is it hot!!! I dont know how I
stand it. Thank God I dont have to be in that stuffy oven with the
other girls again. I wont like it one bit having to work tomorrow.
Got off at five oclock and went to Front Street to buy mothers
bathing suit. Hope she likes it--its a beauty.
We went to the Oxford again. Came home at one o'clock,
and I have to get up tomorrow. Damn it.
Monday, July 11, 1938
Got off at 5:15 went down town to look for another culotte
dress. Went from shop to shop finally found a nice one in Don Roberts.
Spent 3 dollars for it. Now I havent got enough money for Jere.
It rained something fierce in the afternoon, and I was
terribly worried about the open windows, but Mr. Smythe shut them for
Tuesday, July 12, 1938
Got off at noontime its so terribly hot I dont
mind. Went home and washed clothes, went to the library and then lay down
and fell asleep till five.
Wednesday, July 13, 1938
Came home at one o'clock. again. Spent some time with Tessie first. Tessie
is a nice little girl and I like her lots, but I fear she takes herself
Friday, July 15, 1938
I just developed the most gosh awful tummy ache. Dont
know what it could be...its too early for my period, and it couldnt
be something I ate. Probably caught a cold in my abdomen again. Its
quite cool now after that fierce rain storm we had this morning. I thought
it would never clear up in time to go to work...but it did. Came home
at noontime, had trouble with the refrigerator and expected Mrs. H. to
come. Billy came up for company and went with me to get a dfj. It started
to pour and we both got wet.
Saturday, July 16, 1938
Got up pretty early, wanted to make the 9:02 train. Jere
got angry about the badminton set I wanted to get and couldnt. For
the sake of peace I offered to go there and try to find the store open
a little before nine. The man was so slow doing it all I thought Id
never make that train though I ran every foot of the way. Just made it.
Jere & I played the game all afternoon in the boiling sun. I was so
tired and hot, but it was fun. Im worried about Pop, he hasnt
got much work, and hes so disgruntled and discontented and grouchy.
Sunday, July 17, 1938
Joe came with Eddie and Dick and Dicks wife and
kid. We had a grand time. Left too late at night though, and the traffic
was very heavy in spots so Joe couldnt make good time. Missed the
last train and stayed at Dicks house overnight. Theyre both
Friday, October 7, 1938
There was Jamaica Day today and I went & put my neck.
Saturday, October 8, 1938
Jere put up the aerial, and I sewed myself a new dress.
Went out on the bike for some air. Kriy Cullen miraculously cashed a check
for me. Jere went away with the bike keys and just didnt and didnt
come back. I was mad clear through--but never can stay that way. Jere
is pretty discouraged with his job. I dont say anything but do hope
everything will be okay
Sunday, October 9, 1938
Went down to Joe. We had to have a quarrel afternoon.
Any why couldnt I buy a magazine if I want it!!! Lotte and Erick
came along. Mother was glad and so was I. Had a nice time. Came home in
the rumple seat...gosh I almost froze to death. Joe stayed at our house
over night. Brought home that beautiful pottery lamp. It looks nice on
Monday, October 10, 1938
Rose came over in the morning to ask me to go with her
this afternoon. Had lunch with her, went to Semes for my eval--its
a beauty. Took the elevated down to Macey St. , met Oncle Lawrence. He
drove us shopping, stopped by some people (I thought wed never get
away!) went to meet Jere, had supper & went to the show. Tsk, tsk,
we spent too much money.
Cedar Manor, LI
Feb. 11, 1939
Today the sun ventured out into the big world
and at intervals showed his head. Such temerity emboldened me to do likewise,
so the "honeybuns" accompanied me to King [Culleus] and to the dairy.
Joe didn't come.
This morning Mrs. Ferrara asked me to pay for
the coal when it came and showed me how to open the window. She gave me
a $20 bill, and when the coal had been delivered, the driver had no change.
Being a born fool and optimist I permitted him to take the money and bring
back the change on his way back some time later. An hour passed, an hour
and a half,
two hours; no driver. All sorts of things flitted thru
my mind, mostly recriminations, and visions of what I would have said
to you had you done so.
He finally returned with the change, and I
took the dogs shopping. Knowing what to expect on a Saturday, I had intended
to go at noon, but it was late afternoon when I got there. Winkie came
in three times and I had to abandon Chippie in the "cart" while I put
her outside again.
When we arrived home I fed us and went out
Rose wasn't home last night; they must have
gone someplace and forgotten that I was invited over. It was better so,
because I heard Orson Wells in the "Green Goddess."
How are feeling? Are you getting enough rest
and quiet? Do you cry any more? Let me know what you do.
As every your sweetheart,
The honeybuns send their tail wags.
Everybody is going out and I wish I could too.
Somehow this week doesn't seem to be as long as that first one. I clipped
an article out of the Argus, and, sweetheart, that's exactly the way I
feel about you. I'm rambling again but that's the way it always goes...I
feel I must talk to you and then my thoughts just come tumbling out helter-skelter
fashion. I've always wanted an opportunity to be away and write you nice,
interesting and amusing letters, the sort The [Koches] and Tessie enjoy
so much, but I fear I'm sadly handicapped. I'm root bound so to speak,
I go nowhere, scarcely read anything, just do the same old thing in the
same old way and live from Thursday to Sunday and Sunday to Thursday.
In fact my whole life is bound by 'Jere', east, north, south or west it's
Jere-Jere-Jere all the time, and without you I'm like a comet without
his tail...a sad sight indeed.
Well, I've got to confess, my record as "Burner
of Prunes" still stands, a shining example to all those who aspire to
that fine art. To make my mortification complete there was no hiding my
sin in the garbage can, the lady of the house was right there---sniffing
with the best of them. Shucks, even the best of cooks spoil a broth now
and then, and who am
I to say I'm not a good cook? Mrs.
Cribari said they're making an Italian out of me before I know it. I've
tasted and cooked all kinds of concoctions and strange to say I'm not
averse to any...I rather like 'em for a change. I'm afraid my palate will
be spoiled for ordinary American fare. But then, I have a stomach like
an ostrich (and that helps a lot) besides the simple, uncomplaining [face]
of a scullery maid who'd eat potato peeling and consider herself well
Dearest & Best:-
Thanks a million for your letter---it just
hit the spot. Today is such a lovely sunny spring day it gives me nostalgia.
Just can't help thinking what fun it would be to get out our bikes and
go off somewhere for a spin.
Had the baby out for a long walk this morning
and came back with my mind full of you and the fun we used to have together.
I guess seeing all the kids out on their bikes and roller-skates set me
off. Honeybun, please don't go over to Rose's so much. Try to get out
of it as much as you can, make up some sort of alibis. I don't want them
to say after that they fed you etc. etc. and that you came over uninvited
all the time etc. etc. They're the sort of people you can't guess what
they think of you and they won't tell you when you're not welcome. Witness:
Katie. Mother wrote that they again came uninvited that Sunday we popped
in and they had the house full. I don't ever want to go freely to people
I can't trust.
Isn't Elsie a funny little duck? I'm so glad
she finally got what she wanted. Remind me to write to her.
Oh, my sweet darling, you're an old faker and
as inconsistent as most males. Tsk, tsk, such trust!!! Why, you wouldn't
me with a $20 bill. I'll bet you breathed a prayer of thanksgiving
when that missing change showed up!?
Oh yes, I get plenty of rest, Mrs. C. is very
much concerned about my rest period, but it isn't always possible. Nevertheless
I get lusts of sleep at night, now that I'm a little used to the routine
and the bed and sleeping alone. They're all gone and left me this afternoon,
so I got myself an apple, a hunk of cake and retired to my room.
Are you going to meet me here again Thursday?
I'll look for you on my way, and if you can't or won't it's okay too though
I'd like you to.
Give my love and a pat to the bow-wows and
lots of love and kisses to you my sweet darling from your little monkey.
Waited fervently for the mailman and my reward was a measly
"Home & Garden," oh well, tomorrow may be (hopefully)
D'you know I found out why I never can get up enough interest
to listen to symphonies etc. at home and the fault is entirely yours.
I kept quiet for an awfully long time now; I didn't want to spoil your
so obvious enjoyment, but I'm missing too much myself so now I shall rebel....You
know darned well I can't listen to the music and you at the same time.
Had such a beautiful time last night listening to Tchaikovskys
Melody in E Minor (I'm not sure about the title but I know how it goes).
I put out the light and beat time, hummed and whistled with the best of
them. All of a sudden I had a vision of you, doing the same thing probably.
I smiled to myself and enjoyed myself twice as much.
Had the oddest accident the other day, we have the birds-eye
matches, you know, and I lit the oven and blew out the match--well, just
at that moment I inhaled and instead of blowing out the mach I inhaled
flame and sulfur and everything. I tell you for a moment I thought I was
poisoned, it gagged and bound my throat at every breath I tried to draw.
Oh, it was hours before I could breathe without that gagging sensation
in my throat, and I almost coughed my lungs out in the process. But no
fear, my days are not yet numbered, and I shall probably die in my dotage
laughing at my foolishnesses. By the way did you listen to that play last
Lord Savile's Crime"? Oh, it was so funny. And I thought Charlie
McCarthy was unusually good.
I came across a poem this morning that I just had to
copy down. Did you ever hear of Thomas Moore? I never did, and I thought
I knew all there is to know about poetry.
And so good night my love, good night et. etc.
A thousand Kisses
Good Night! Good night! -- and is it so?
And must I from my darling go?
Oh, dearest, say 'good night' once more
and I'll repeat it o'er and o'er,
Till the first glance of dawning light
Shall find us saying still 'good night'.
And still 'good night' my darling say
And whisper still 'A minute stay',
And I will stay, and every minute
Shall have an age of rapture in it.
We'll kiss and kiss with quick delight
And murmur while we kiss 'good night.'
'Good night', you'll murmur with a sigh
And tell me it is time to fly
And I will vow to kiss no more
Yet kiss you closer than before
Till slumber seal the weary sight--
And then my love! My soul! --good night
But I long for you today, dear heart of mine, so much
so I must put aside all work to saturate myself with this longing. Was
it yesterday or years that your arms were around me last and your love
a tangible thing that [shivered] and throbbed, [hurt] and soothed. It
must have been years, long and empty years since I felt your mouth crushed
against mine and your passion hot in my blood--an exquisite flame.
Lover, lover, my happiness lies heavy on my heart. I cannot
[carry] such a burden alone. I need you so today, I feel like a wearied
and [thirsting traveler] thinking of all the cool places and wines he's
How endlessly long the day and so slow when I would hurry
to you Dearest, Life is so hard--and so generous. I found you, and the
glory of it numbs me, and yet I lose you every day anew. When I would
put out my hand for reassurance I grasp nothing but memory. It is such
agony to long so for the touch of you, to hear you...see you...and there
is nothing but waiting for the day to end.
Beloved, you are my life, my heaven and my hell. I would
have heaven so I must take the hell. Without this agony there could be
no sweetness in our meeting, but oh my darling let it be soon.